This was me in my younger years. I was dorky and scrawny but I loved myself. I loved my personality, I loved how eccentric I was and I loved how I was very funny and a class clown, literally a firecracker. However, something I did struggle with was my outer appearance/confidence speaking with girls. Coming from a family where my dad was a football team captain, my uncle a basketball team captain and had brothers who also played football, I was the odd one out. I also had an irrational fear of rejection where even when interested in a female, I held my tongue and never put myself out there because I didn't know what to expect. I felt as if hearing a "no" to my face wasn't worth it, no matter how happy someone could've made me. I wasn't overweight but I didn't by any means have muscle or visible abs and even though I loved who I was, I had very low confidence when speaking to girls and that inhibited many opportunities. Instead of football, I ran track but there aren't too many muscular track athletes out there. Eventually, I picked up my first weight set and when I began seeing results, I committed to making a complete lifestyle change because I wanted to be happy finally. I wanted to stop living in fear.